Random Thoughts

“Every day you may make progress. Every step may be fruitful. Yet there will stretch out before you an ever-lengthening, ever-ascending, ever-improving path. You know you will never get to the end of the journey. But this, so far from discouraging, only adds to the joy and glory of the climb.” - Sir Winston Churchill.

I finished group therapy yesterday. It surprises yet delights me how much I'll miss it, since I had such a negative outlook going in.

I'll begin the next stage of this healing process Monday when I go to work for the first time in two months. There's a lot of anxiety building, but I have enough of a support system now that I don't have to rely upon only two or three people when I need help. It's better for them, so I don't burn them out. It's also better for me, so I can get differing points of view on issues. So, win-win!!

I've been seeing a therapist since I got out of the hospital, and she's incredible. So much so that last week, for just our fifth session, I felt comfortable enough to go to the appointment in a dress. Left the house in it, without covering it with jeans, as I'd done the week before, when I wore it to group. I've rarely, if ever, been more proud of myself.

Since leaving the hospital, I haven't had a single good day home by myself. Every single one has had some sort of incident take place where I've freaked out. Today, that finally changed. The kids and the basement dwelling troll are home, and the wife is on the way. I finally had a day alone without a meltdown.

Goodnight, friends. Just wanted to do a quick post since it's been a week since I last posted