The past two days have been absolutely amazing. I haven't stopped smiling, and I've been in the best mood I've been in for at least a couple years. The funny thing about it?
I have no idea why.
I couldn't tell you what has caused this sudden giddiness.
The best part of it is that I'm not digging into it. I'm not searching for answers or obsessing, and that makes me even happier. I'm also not allowing myself to ruin this mood. I'm not fixating on anything negative.
This morning we went to a silent auction at my oldest son's school. One of the items was a basket full of baking items. It had 8 different pans, a cookie sheet, and a bunch of other stuff. The total value was $90, and as bidding closed, the highest bid was $32. I was all set to make my move and put in a $33 bid at the last second, but I got distracted by some kids running past, and didn't get to bid in time.
Three months ago - hell, maybe even three weeks ago - this would have sent my mood spiraling downward. I would have kept telling myself how stupid I was, how big a failure. I would have run myself through the ringer.
It didn't bother me at all today. It rolled off, I went about my day, and I kept smiling.
Title is from "Smile Like You Mean It" by The Killers
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